He decided it was time to close his story and for obvious reasons he picked the apt song or at least that’s what I thought. He decided to call me that day and it left me a little off guard. I didn’t have my notepad or anything to record his words. He never really ever made it easy for me but then again this was never going to be that easy. I hope you are listening to me? And then he began, for one last time..
My book has failed, my love has failed and to be honest nothing hurts more than the fact that no one really cares. Do not protest, you know it’s the truth. Even the idea of restarting has become impossible to even comprehend and you begin to wonder what you are leaving behind. Is there any legacy, any unfulfilled destiny that someone forgot to inform you about? You certainly realize there is no secret waiting for you to uncover. I have lived with many ideas, mild successes and too many regrets. That’s no way to square up to life. I urge you to help me immortalize this life. There is no certainty and there is no solution. I want to leave that behind and these songs which will always tell the story of despair and arising from that the most unbelievable urge to live, to not give up.
I had thrown the phone and started running. I had to get there and I had to get there fast. My mind was racing. the songs, the symbolism of it all. The concept of Ved Vyas and Ganesha writing, co-creating an epic. The mythology of it all. Most importantly the need for validation that helped create a story that will forever remain immortal. I remembered the songs, each of them reflecting the moments that will forever define him. By the time I got there he was already gone. First he was lying listless on the sofa and as I saw his eyes close, something woke up in me. The story was over, most importantly he in his own way had helped us both. I sat next to him and he became one with the nothingness around me..
It was only me, it always was only me. I had been healed and the playlist of a past life, was, well, complete now.
With this song..